The physical and
spiritual sides of redemption take place through structure. The mitzvos
provide us with this structure and give us the ability to redirect our middos.
The first middah in the order of the sefiras is the middah
of chesed, loving-kindness. How can we do the inner work that enables
us to move ourselves with greater shleimus to the halachos of chesed?
The more we value
our ability to become people who are significant and bearers of Hashem's
image, the more we will love ourselves and others. This is not the love
that is a cause and manifestation of self-indulgence. It is the common link
we share with Hashem - a materialization of our love for Him.
The death of the
disciples of Rabbi Akiva s a tragic reflection of how any breakage in the
process of this linkage affects all its components. They did not honor each
other to the degree that their ability to see both the divinity and the
Torah within them should have merited.
Their level is
so far beyond ours that what we refer to as their lack of mutual respect
is far from the way that phrase translates into our daily lives. They did
not push each other on the bus nor marginalize each other because of their
individuality. Their mistakes were infinitely more subtle, but invariably
sources in the same lack of inner equanimity. The two examples given above
of mutual lack of respect in our society are far more extreme buy have the
same cause as that which affected Rabbi Akiva's disciples: both they and
we suffer from disharmony.
The Torah they
learned ideally would give them absolute balance within themselves. The
natural indication of this balance would be their responding to everyone
with the kind of respect that could only be born of integration and harmony.
The Hebrew word
for "honor," kavod, has the same numerical value as the
Hebrew word lev, "heart." True recognition of the emotional
integrity of our fellow man will ensure that the kavod we give them
is authentic. The fact that the death of Rabbi Akiva's students took place
within the first thirty-two days of the omer brings this truth home to us.
Thirty-two is the numerical value of both kavod and lev.
Let us use the
power of the days that are before us to be more alive, more connected, more
harmonious. Let us bring this to our relationships with Hashem and with
ourselves and with everyone we encounter. Let us teach ourselves to be less
afraid of freedom. Let us learn to regard it as an open door. Let us use
the time of sefirah to find the opportunity to make the kind of connections
with others that are selfless and are not reflections of the endless pursuit
of our own needs. Let us reach a higher place, to Hashem Himself. Let us
never fear the open door.